gaining d lost existence

I have long since stopped shouting for justice.
I have long since stopped shouting my innocence.
I have stopped shouting, I have lost the ability,
Because shouting is for the alive and I am dead
in every sense.

I have no wish to live.
I have no desire to die.
My existence is that of a leaf,
A leaf which is now dry.

All emotions I have long forgotten.
Ideals I’ve stopped believing in.
Truth is just a fallacy.
For me believing is a sin.

I am a puppet without strings,
For me my family is long since dead.
I had to push my love away,
Because in me new feelings of hope she bred.

I used to be a man of substance
Everything I did was true.
I laugh at those times now.
What else can I even do?

I was a man of integrity
One whose ideals could never shake.
They broke me, raped me, murdered me,
They robbed me of my faith.

Two days ago they sentenced me to death,
After fourteen years of living in this hole.
But they can only kill my physical self,
Because they have long since killed my soul.

(not b y me.....Thanx a ton Venky; 4 this.....)